What to do at home

Is it a question you are asking yourself sometimes?
This might be the question I ask every day... Poor people that have to hear it way too often.
Every day has to be special... How do you make every day special? How do you tell one from another if nothing particular is happening? I used to do it by subjects at school :), since they would be in different days of the week, then by meetings I had to attend, then by places I have visited... Now I do it by small achievements. Drawing or painting,


finishing a book, taking a photo shoot walk or watching a good movie.
And it's not that you have nothing to do, it's just this believe that everything has to be for something. Do you follow me? Do you have it as well? Whatever you do has to have a purpose, be aligned with something else which together with previously aligned actions would bring you somewhere where you want to be... even if you do not know yet where is that.

What do you want in life?

Do you really know what you want in life? Are you sure that still would be what you wanted when you get it?
I was just thinking today, the life is too short for making wrong choices... Say you go to Starbucks and get that latte with cinnamon syrup you never tried before. You make a sip and you know - this is a ruined experience. Now, there is tomorrow, or next week, or next year in New York, when you would know which coffee is out of list of trials :). Some choices are more impactful unfortunately, you can't deal with them just by throwing to trash bean if you do not like the outcome of your choice tomorrow.
And what is interesting, sometimes we are just unable to connect the choice to the outcome at all. Say, you choose that fatty burger too many times over that plain salad, or you choose to neglect the exam book and lean back to watch Dr. House and you have exam tomorrow, or you choose to ignore work e-mails from boring partners... But I am sure if we would be faced with an outcome straight away, just at the moment when we make decision, we would not have chosen that high cholesterol, failing an exam or manager complaint on your work habbits. How is that for a choice - missing a plane! Who wants that? But how many of us catch it just by minutes?
Lifestyle choices, eating habbits, exercising, work and relationship, friendships... What do we choose, where will it get us? What do you think? What do you say? What do you ask? What do you read? Why do you read this? Go read smething else written by someone who knew what he wanted in life and chose to act upon it....

Catching up

It is amazing how fast the time went by... It feels I just got back from far away, it was winter and the whole unknown experiense was still blinking ahead. It is in the past now, almost four months filled with questions, doubts, small victories, couple of losses, smiles, laughs, a few tear drops... lectures, group works, exams... and a couple of more oil paintings.

This is an evaluation of my consious and unconsious doings, since I do get carried away sometimes and go with a strim without resuming the control for too long. Not an easy task either...
Why is this needed? Maybe another chapter of my life is just about to come to an end... I am done with my Masters, AIESEC, and I think I got older as well :) anyway there are reasons for change. Maybe, I am still hoping to find a purpose in this crushing world, maybe the flattened world is just too attractive to get calm and settle in one place. Or maybe for too long I did not ask myself those important questions that, when answered, let you know who you really are...

Hmmm, maybe I should take another a break now.

Celebration

It is already today, still have not slept.
The new semester starts... managing studies, work and just life... in a relationship. I am excited, doubt I will sleep tonight.

Well, to say my byes to an easy life, I had celebrated: first alone, in the herb smell of baking bread in the morning;


then in Kaffitar with a friend catching up on half year long happenings; and biting on a chewy brownies, that I made just few minutes ago with Dvorak on the background.


I am fully prepared now...

Apple

It was such a nice smell of green apples in the apartment and such a strong wind against the window - one can't sleep these nights. I suddenly had an urge to draw at 2 in the morning.
Somewhat clumsy result of combination of circumstances:

Sunday

Well, seems like this is going to turn into real 'just life' blog - simple things that make it.

Not many things can be better than waking up before 7 am on Sunday and making freshly baked bread for breakfast. Or drawing still life with set of pastels. Or listening to Tchaikovsky and making a necklace out of beads or pearls or just anything.

So the blog is going to be about these small steps that make my life interesting, or better to say that just make my life.

Autumn

It's been a while since I posted last, got busy, distracted, lost writing spirit...
I meant to for a few times... but laptop in the backpack hiking through numerous coffee places did not happen somehow. Just couple of days ago I spotted a place riding a bike on the way to school (I am a happy owner of a two wheels vehicle) it brought back some things I was missing immersed in simple everyday routine: Chinese, work and some social life until I drop dead tired. Thousands of pictures untouched and unsorted, books unread, running paths undiscovered....


This month flew fast but was as eventful as 24 hours a day could ever allow. I went to Tibet for a week. Took amazing photos on 5000 m altitude: mountains, lakes, people, glaciers... beautiful wonders of nature... monks and Buddhist flags, temples... as if from older times, all less materialistic.

Came back to jump right into Chinese exam(disappointed) and some worldwide economy craziness (amazed by interdependence)... I did not happen to owe much, so I had nothing to lose just maybe got a bit stronger connection to the Confucius's saying: We are here to live not plan to live .


I continued exploration of this wonderful place that I call home now... it treats me as home as well, huge and surprising on every corner. I have a great hopes on my bike, until it gets stolen...

Last weekend I found myself racing on dragon boats out of town, enjoying probably the last hot days until the cold slows down adventures, attending Formula 1 and Art Festival's ballet performance.... not to count numerous good and not so movies I watched alone, with friends and just random people...

It's Friday again, looking forward to a company of my bike, camera and couple of friends to run away from work and Chinese characters right into wide spread welcoming arms of Shanghai...